Where I’ve been.

       Hey y’all! It’s been a while since I last posted something, I’ve been MIA a majority of 2023 because of some personal reasons that led me to stepping away from Red Dirt Ranchette and Let Her Roam for a little bit. With the start of the new year I’m going to try to get back into the groove of things and start putting more energy into RDR and LHR. This particular blog post is going to be a little personal and it may be a little triggering to some, but I thought I’d let y’all know why I’ve been so quiet.

       Late January 2023 I had found out I was pregnant, my husband and I were excited of course but not long after finding out about the pregnancy I had miscarried. I took it extremely hard, those who have experienced a miscarriage/pregnancy loss know how mentally and physically exhausting it is. Time passed and after some talks with my doctor my husband and I decided to try again for a baby, almost immediately I had a positive pregnancy test. I was anxious but hopeful, my doctor had told me that my body may be better “primed” for pregnancy this second time around because of my elevated hormones from the first and we were doing bloodwork often to check on things. 

        Because of the previous miscarriage my doctor was seeing me more frequently which did give some peace of mind but at around 9 weeks along I found out that there was no longer a heartbeat meaning I would miscarry again, I chose not to have medical intervention and let my body run its course. During this time there was also outside factors that made it harder to cope, for example having to leave my husbands birthday celebration because my body decided to miscarry on that particular day at that particular time..After 2 miscarriages in the first 7 months of 2023 I was in a very dark place. Daily chores became harder to accomplish and I had no motivation for anything.

       After tons of love and support from my husband and opening my Bible to find comfort from God I was able to overcome this hard season of life. For 2024 I’m going to focus on the things that make me happy, like spending time with my family, creating jewelry and working on Red Dirt Ranchette. I’m coming into the new year with a positive mind and spirit and I’m excited for what’s to come. With that being said, there are a few projects I’ve done over the past couple months that I will update y’all on in the future along with some future plans I’ve thought up. 

       Like I had mentioned above, this particular blog post was to share what I have been going through that has lead me to be absent from RDR. If you’ve made it this far, thank you! I promise my nexts posts will be more positive and focused on what your here for, chickens, gardening and homestead content. I can’t wait to continue sharing this part of my life that brings me so much joy with y’all. Like aways check back often for new posts, and follow me on social media for more bts content. 

                                                                                                         -Shelby Ray